Saturday, December 31, 2005

Christmas~2005


It was a fun time. A bit overwhelming, overestimating..A long long car ride. Strangefood, A bit too many gifts for the children, and a long long car ride back home. Overall I happy it is over, until next year.
I hope to be with my family this time, considering for the last two years we have had Christmas with dh's family. Which is nice but give me a break, what about my family? Now onto NewYear's I figured I had better write a cmas post before the calendars turns tonight to 2006! Happy healthy, prosperous New Year to All...

Friday, December 23, 2005

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Christmas Memories & Angels


Do you remember my old friend Sarah B?
She spoke at the church at our wedding? She gave me a surprise phone call late last night.., it was so nice to hear from her, it had been years..She lives in Q with her four year old son Nickolas...She works as a secretary at a real estate office....
We talked for a long time...She is a single mom and gets no help from the father...
They were married in Greece 4 yrs ago.., but just got a divorce...sad.....She gets no help from ANYONE...I met her in 1996 at C&W in Dedham...I do give her credit..
Her strong faith remains and her spirituality has grown through the years. I remember how many great times we shared, how I valued her friendship, how she has always accepted me for me and would never want it any other way. How rare is that? I remember her Christmas and NewYears Eve Parties at her old apartment., how much of a blast we had. Our long talks about finding future husband and starting families one day. She is an angel in disguise that girl.

I will pick up a small ham at Shaw's tomm.....
Do you think I can find one under 10.00$....????
Just in case...I could always make a ham dinner on Monday, when we get home...If I have enough energy to whip up a post Christmas Ham Dinner. Just is not Christmas without a "Christmas Ham"

I think Stephen wants to go regardless if it snows or not......Will see....To ME It is just plain crazy and reckless to drive in the snow or a "wintry mix" and endanger our lives just to spend cmas day with family. Is it worth it?

He has the truck today.

I have his playgroup in the morning and her dance in the afternoon...

Nice to just get caught up with laundry and some little cleaning today.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

anna nalick

ANNA NALICK LYRICS

"Breathe (2 AM)"

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

In May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a Day", he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

Monday, December 05, 2005

Weekend



We went to the John Deere c~mas with Santa........And real reindeer....And 20% off toys....Got a cute tool box for Stephen.

They had a lot of food, coffee, soda, all kinds of cmas cookies....., cupcakes, hot dogs, sausages....The kids liked it., saw Santa got a goodie bag...Came back around 1145....

Stephen got a cmas tree.....tall as the ceiling..We are lucky to have such high ceilings, about 9 feet high.


Want to get some cmas shopping started but don't know when maybe tonight at dinner time......?????

tomorrow they say maybe snow here

bitter cold 30 degrees with a mighty wind chill....

got an email from Steven Jacob.....Thank you card...Very Nice.

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Lobster Trap Tree


What a magical sight to behold! Our local tree, made of 122 traps. It is an honor to all the lobsterman. How cool is this?

Children


Holidays and the children.....
We had a great quiet turkey day, then in or family tradition we went to see Santa at the waterfront the next day. It was a first for us to see the tree lighting that evening, but of course we had to go, the tree was made of lobster traps!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Snow on Thanksgiving Eve

Its been lightly snowing since 830am this morning here......

Have the Pumpkin pie in the oven as we speak/"write"
Feels good to bake....I enjoy baking, not cooking....The aromas of the pie and the wood stove are hypnotic.

It hasn't reached above 30 today so far, and doubt it will,
Stephen called me at lunch time told me to stoke the wood stove and put a log or two in.....Well I did and made a warm fire all by myself!!!!! I did it!

Little Steve and me waited on the back deck for Kalen's school bus, and he shoveled some snow.., kept saying "mess, mess" so very cute and so simple. This year will be fun because I think he will have a better grasp on the holidays and the snowy weather we have all too often.

As big "S" Stephen says 'Let it snow Let it snow" Bah! Too early for my taste, but what can you when you live at the frig gin North Pole!

On the eve of Thanksgiving I take the time to reflect once again how lucky and blessed I truly am. I have a wonderful family. My very own and my extended loved ones. I began to talk with my younger brother again this year after two years of silence. I have incredible friends that have endured the value and loyalty of true meaningful friendships, although they area cross the miles, we remain. I have my health, my mom and dad do as well. What more could anyone else ask for or begin to feel the sense of gratitude I have in my life.

Happy Thanksgiving.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Self Discoverer

***You are a Self-Discoverer***


You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality.
Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine.
You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion.
You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans.

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Dance Class

After nine dance classes we are not going today, K is sick, poor baby. I think her school is filthy, with filthy, unkept children, they are getting her ill! She feels like the steps are too difficult. It is suppose to be fun I tell her. Do you like dance class? I ask her and she says yeahhh...,well great because it cost money I say to myself. I don't think I am pushing her I just want to expose her to as many different things as I can, be it art, dance, culture anything! She is so bright, I feel like she will be good at anything but how will she ever know if I don't expose her to certain activities? The thing about parenting is that it is just such a constant thing, it NEVER ends and there are constant decisions, even things such as dance class.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Words

soap, water, lion, queen,witch,moo moo, len len,bye, bye,hot, cook, bath, tub, train, that's not nice, no way, ladder, roof, day, day, jump, done, on, thank you, one two, three, nose, eyes, ears, ween, pen,night night, toy, yup, einstein

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

Monday, October 31, 2005

Happy Halloween

Happy all hallows eve----the very best, holiest night of the year........

Monday, October 24, 2005

FLORIDA


Thinking of you Florida, at this time when Wilma is coming to land upon your beautiful paradise of land, sea, and people. I think of the wonderful time I have spent there at my parentrs little hide away. The oasis by the sea. I feel so sad and vunerable, as I watch the news and weather reports of what is about to happen.
Please pass by quickly and leave no severe damage in your path.
I love you FortMyers. Go fast and smooth and don't stay too long.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

Feeling Fall

I always have a fall feeling called let down. I feel this way because I know deep in my soul winter is forthcoming. It is really just awful, because when I was younger I tried so hard to see the change in seasons as a blessing of some sorts, a new fresh beginning...Ha what joke, funny how that changes as one ages.
I am so not a winter person at all. So what is one to do, or what should I feel, when I know winter is coming. Yes, snow boots, suits, hats, scarves, gloves shovels....arghhhhhhh....Why can't summer be forever?

Monday, September 26, 2005

Happy Fall

Stephen started a new job today hope all works out very well at this new place.
Kalen will have this week off from pre-school they are having new management come in and they don't want the chidlren there. So I have both at home once again just when we were digging ourselves into a nice fall routine. Argh what can be said about change. It is such a good thing. You need to view it as a fresh start, a new beginning, a new exciting season upon us. However you see change it is inevitable it will occur regardless. K- will be attending her second class in dance this week, we had to change to a different day during the week as the dance teacher was booked solid on overload with a muliptude of young girl dancers. S- will be attending his third week at the toy-library. He really enjoys it and it gives me a chance to meet other moms. That can be both positive and negative. Change is in the air, and perhaps long over due. It is just so hard when you set the bar so high with the old friendships you have/had in the past, how can anyone compare? Its a tough one for certain. Happy Fall~

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

20 QUESTIONS


1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4. Write down what it says:
THEN THERE WERE 10 LITTLE TURTLES

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?
My CURTAINS
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?
Dora
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time is:200p.m..?
5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?
1:52 p.m.!
6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
I'm listening to dora!
7: When did you last step outside?
About an hour ago
8: What are you wearing?
black teeshirt with dark blue levis
9: Did you dream last night?
no
10: When did you last laugh?
Earlier when I got K off her bus!
11: What is on the walls of the room you are in? 8 Framed photos of my family & children
12: Seen anything weird lately?
Nope.
13: What are you thinking about right now?
How I dont want to go to depositions!
14: What is the last film you saw?
Maid in Manhattan
15: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?
A new house on the ocean, a luxury chris craft boat...college fund for both my chidlren
16: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
My biggest pet peeve lous rude people also attention seekers
17: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
What eles? WORLD PEACE
18: Imagine your firST child is a girl, what do you call her?
19. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?
20: If you could have one wish, what would it be?
To be happy.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

NEVER FORGET

We were living on Cape Cod, Massachusetts at the time- I rememeber hearing the fighter jets in the sky leaving from otis Airforce Base.....(didnt think much of it)
dh was on the phone on hold, when he had a message come on and he got a news report of it, and yelled for me to turn on the tv., nickjr doesnt go off when you have a toddler, kalen was only 11 months at the time, now almost 5ys old. I put the tv on to see the second plane hit the tower- It was horrifying then the news went haywire, they switched to the pentagon, then the farm/field in PA I watched with kalen and dh in shear horror and disbelief. We watched the remainder of the day. Just cried and cried and held each other tight....., We have friends who go into NYC daily so we checked in on them by phone too.
The image of the plane will stay forever burned in my memory...........

Friday, September 09, 2005

7 things

7 things I plan to do before I die:
1. Travel..
2. Have sex at least one more time.
3. Quit smoking.
4. Take a cruise.
5. Dye my hair red. Just because.
6. Ride in a hot-air balloon.
7. Watch my chidlren gorw up to be happy adults

7 things I can do:
1. Change a tire.
2. Make the best chocolate chip cookies)
3.Write poetry
4. Simultaneously brush my teeth brush my daughter's hair change my son's shirt stir whatever is cooking on the stove I know. I'm awesome.
5. Carry on an intelligent conversation about most anything .
6. Sah with my kids and enjoy it.
7. Cut a rug!

7 things I cannot do:
1. Compromise my values.
2. Whistle.
3. NOT speak up when I strongly believe in something.
4. Cook well
5. Stop being funny.
6. Give up my computer.
7. Show disrespect to my loved ones.

7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. Smile.
2. Sense of humor
3. Intelligence
4. Eyes
5. Father Figure
6. Height
7. Sense of ambition.

7 things I say most often:
1. For cryin' out loud.
2. Your not lisenting to me.
3. Now what?
4. SHIT.
5. No more sassy-talk.
6. Have a good day.
7. Love you.

7 celebrity crushes:
(or alternately titled "Men I'd like to shag")
1. Brad Pitt
2. John Cusack
3. Keanu Reeves
4. Denzel Washington
5. Brad Paisley
6. Tim Mcgraw
7. Mathew Machonahey

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

School

Today was Kalen's first day back to pre-school.....feels strange saying it because even though they take children ages 3 to 5 she looks and acts so much beyond her young years.....She hopped on the bus so brave and waved goodbye...Sad and happy mom at the same time watching my baby all grown and secure in her situation of her first day back-- I was always nervous as a child and somewhat very insecure, not my girl--wow, sad happy mommy tears
And a major milestone too- for 3.5 yrs she has slept in our bedroom in the corner on her "toddler" bed....urghhhhh her legs have been touching it- she is so tall- so I took down Stephens crib and put the toddler bed in his room.....She now finally sleeps in her room.....Not an easy task- but she is in there in her big girl bed....Full size-- has to make up a sticker chart and told her she gets a surprise for every night she sleeps in there----- wow well 3 nights and shining now!! woohoo yay!

Sunday, September 04, 2005

Hurricane Katrina

This past week down south certainly has been a rough one. I think it has brought out the best in some people and the worst in others as well. I can't get over the slow response by our federal government, our lacking of leadership within the local government to our non humatarian president. I am overwhemled with sadness and guilt that this is America 2005. This is suppose to be the best richest country in the history of the world and we have behaved like a third world country in our reaction to helping those poor people down south. I can't put into words the indescribable feeling feeling I have been overcome with. The massive destruction that has taken place and the squalor left over in its aftermath has been pure hell. It saddens me to no end. There are still people there, needing rescue. Why? Why am I feel ashamed for this country?

photos http://tinyurl.com/8lpw4

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Friday, August 26, 2005

It was amazing

what a fun time we had....

got there at 6:00pm....., had cheeseburgers/fries/hotdogs......
walked around saw all the farm animals......cows, pigs, goats, sheep etc...
got our seat at the grandstand field.....on the field at 715.....she went on about 8:10pm...
very loud.....sang about 10 songs Kalen was begging to go on a ride....sang a cover of "sweet dreams" by patsy Cline......sounded very nice.....great voice...
After we were able to get in line.....and meet her!!!!!
I had her sign the CD "to kalen, god bless you- Julie Roberts" and had my picture with kalen and her! How neat!!!!! she is so opreety and so sweet...down to earth girl next door...loved her southcarolina twang...
It was so cute Kalen gave her a big hug and kiss! wow nobody big comes to Maine!!!!! Not this close anyway.......always to Portland....90 miles from here.......and to see her for 6 bucks oh my god! wow

It was great! The kids stayed awake until we got to the car....10:15 P.M.....
Got home about 10:35.....straight to bed!
A great opportunity to see and meet her!

Thursday, August 25, 2005

Tonight!

She rocks!
Can't wait tonight we see her!!!!!!Yahoo Yippe Yie Aay!!!!

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

Back To School

Kalen needs to go back! I am counting the days until she returns..,15 days!!! Yahoo-
We thrive on rountine around here, it what keeps me sane as well. She needs to be around other chidlren about her age. I am very depressed she is not heading off to kindergarten, the fact that she is eager, willing and beyond ready to go dampens my spirits doesn't make matters any better. I need to be strong and happy so she is still excited about going back, so she can thrive and be enthusiastic about what she is learning, even though she is far brighter then her school mates at this stage in the game. If she regresses or becomes bored I will push and challenge her teachers to give her more vigorous activities and projects. I hope she has a very good and quick 10 months. One plus is that she will have a pre-school graduation next June and that thrills me to no end.

Thursday, August 18, 2005

Julie Roberts

Mile marker 203, the gas guage leanin' on the edge of "E",
An' I'll be dang'd if the rain ain't pourin' down.
There's somethin' smokin' underneath the hood,
It's a-bangin' and a-clangin' an' it can't be good,
An' it's another fifty miles to the nearest town.
Everythin' I own's in the back in a hefty bag;
I'm outta cigarettes an' I'm down to my last drag.

I'd sure hate to break down here,
Nothin' up ahead or in the rear view mirror.
Out in the middle of no-where, no-where.
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin'.
So, God help me, keep me movin' somehow.
Don't let me start wishin' I was with him now.
I made it this far without cryin' a single tear.
I'd sure hate to break down here.

Under fifty thousand miles ago,
Before the bad blood an' busted radio,
He said I was all he had ever needed.
But love is blind an' little did I know,
You were just another dead end road,
Made with pretty lies an' broken dreams.
Baby, leavin' you is easier than bein' gone.
I don't know what I'll do if one more thing goes wrong.

I'd sure hate to break down here,
Nothin' up ahead or in the rear view mirror.
Out in the middle of no-where, no-where.
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin'.
So, God help me, keep me movin' somehow.
Don't let me start wishin' I was with him now.
I made it this far without cryin' a single tear.
An' I'd sure hate to break down here.
Oh, no.

I'd sure hate to break down here,
With nothin' up ahead or in the rear view mirror.
Out in the middle of no-where, no-where.
I'm in trouble if these wheels stop rollin'.
So, God help me, keep me movin' somehow.
Don't let me start wishin' I was with him now.
I made it this far without cryin' a single tear.
An' I'd sure hate to break down,
It's too late to turn around.
I'd sure hate to break down here.

Julie Roberts, originally uploaded by mama.k.10.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Herb Garden

Next spring we most definitely are planting an herb garden. The smells and the sights of fresh herbs are too good to miss out on. We have the space, it needs to be done.

Monday, August 15, 2005

Strong Woman

A strong woman works out everyday to keep her body in shape...but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape.

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything...

but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear.

A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her... but a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone.

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future...but a woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be God's blessings and capitalizes on them.

A strong woman walks surefootedly...but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls...

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face.... but a woman of strength wears grace.

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey... but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong.



------ Author Unknown--





Sunday, August 14, 2005

Children's Chapel

“This chapel is built to the memory of all young people who have passed through this world and gained God by so doing. It stands for freedom of thought, prayer and action. It stands for holiness within the body, and for God in the heart each waking hour. May the Lord bless all young people who come here for spiritual and mental refreshment.” — Helene Bok

more words

duck...bean...light...eye...eyes...
You are moving right along now..despite you have missed two speech classes, your pathologist has been out sick.

Friday, August 12, 2005

Day Trip


Took the kids to Camden yesterday afternoon for ice creams and to show them the schooners up close. What a beautiful harbor and bustling little town. The chidlren had never been around so many people before. It felt like a little city. Very crowed with tourist and the locals alike, many people speaking French. K just loved it so.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

If you give a mom a muffin......

If you give a Mom a muffin,
She'll want a cup of coffee to go with it.
She'll pour herself some.
The coffee will get spilled by her three year old.
She'll wipe it up.
Wiping the floor, she will find some dirty socks.
She'll remember she has to do some laundry.
When she puts the laundry in the washer,
She'll trip over some snow boots and bump into the freezer.
Bumping into the freezer will remind her she has to plan
dinner for tonight.
She will get out a pound of hamburger.
She will look for her cookbook (101 Things to Make with a
Pound of Hamburger)
The cookbook is sitting under a pile of mail.
She will see the phone bill which is due tomorrow.
She will look for her checkbook.
The checkbook is in her purse that is being dumped out by
her two year old.
She'll smell something funny.
She'll change the two year old.
While she is changing the two year old the phone will ring.
Her four year old will answer it and hang up.
She remembers that she wants to phone a friend to come for
coffee on Friday.
Thinking of coffee will remind her that she was going to
have a cup.
She will pour herself some.
And chances are......
If she has a cup of coffee......
Her kids will have eaten the muffin that went with it
__________________

Saturday, August 06, 2005

New words all words

So far he knows....
Mama
Dada
Buddie
More
Yes
No
Juice
Nana
Papa
Bubble
dog
Bang
Ball
Roll it
Mine
Me

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Lobster Fest '05


We all seemed to enjoy ourselves tremendously. We arrived quite early and saw some tents, the vendors were still setting up there wares. It was the perfect weather for this event. Home town day, and the admission was free. Kalen went on three rides and I went on the Ferris wheel, what a view up there. We all ate the best of the best lobster rolls right in the Maine lobster eating tent on the ocean. Life is good! We went for a late afternoon swim in the pool which the children enjoyed, as did I. For dinner we ate piazza's poolside. It was a very pleasant day.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

Glutton

August 02, 2005
All the things I really like to do are either immoral, illegal, or fattening.
— Alexander Woolcott

Monday, August 01, 2005

Blueberry Fever


So I created a blueberry picking monster!!!!! I wanted to hike Beech Hill on Saturday so we did, as a family one mile up one mile back down..Watch out for the sumac and the ivy..The birds and the view were infamoulsy priceless. Mountains on one side and the endless blue ocean on the other. It was breathtakingly magnificent.
The chidlren seemed to enjoy it but in hindsight it was too much for them. We had the very best blueberry pancakes the next morning. The my dear husband gets another idea., "hey let's go get more!" So Sunday morning off we went again. However this time we found a simpler short cut and much easier outlet to pick some more wild organic blueberry's. He made the very best pie later in the day too. The house smelled like a heavenly blueberry factory! What a great family weekend we had.

VERY BLUEBERRY PIE (MOIST AND EASY)

4 C. Blueberries
1 C. Sugar
3/4 C. Cold water
5 tbsp. Flour
1 (9") baked pie shell
Whipped cream, as desired
Pinch of salt

Mix together 1/4 cup cold water, 5 tablespoons flour and salt; set aside. Bring to a boil 1 cup blueberries, sugar and 1/2 cup water; add the flour paste, stir and cook until thick. Cool. Add remaining berries, pour into cooked pie shell. Serve with a topping of whipped cream.

Friday, July 29, 2005

Child

Today's Quote

The day the child realizes that all adults are imperfect he becomes an adolescent; the day he forgives them, he becomes an adult; the day he forgives himself, he becomes wise.

-Aiden Nowlan

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Understanding

Adopted Child

Once there were two women who never knew each other..
One you do not remember, the other you call mother.


Two different lives, shaped to make Your one...
One became your guiding star, the other became your sun.


The first gave you life and the second taught you to live it.
The first gave you a need for love, and the second was there to give it.


One gave you a nationality, the other gave you a name.
One gave you a seed of talent, the other gave you an aim.


One gave you emotions, the other calmed your fears.
One saw your first sweet smile, the other dried your tears.


One gave you up ... that's all she could do.
The other prayed for a child and God led her straight to you.


And now you ask me, through your fears,
the age old question unanswered throughout the years...


Heredity or environment .. Which are you the product of?

Neither, my darling .. neither..
just two different kinds of love.

Monday, July 25, 2005

A Wonderful Weekend

K calls me on late Friday afternoon- hey guess what she says, we are coming to Maine to see you and your family!!!! Ahhh no way, I seriously thought she was joking. But no, J booked a room at
  • samoset resort


  • "The Samoset Resort" and yes they were leaving later that day- Wow after 4.5 years I was really going to see my best friend in the entire world ever. Saturday morning about 9:30 A.M. there they were at my front door., her whole family- What an exciting amazing euphoric feeling to see her and her family at our home. Her children are just too cute a bit shy at first but that's expected because they don't who the heck I am or who my husband and children are. We had a great time at the resort pool., and then Saturday night dinner was a blast. It was a really good time to spend time with her and her family. It was a very utmost high light of my summer so far. Friendship is such a valued treasure and I am a very lucky woman to still be sharing that with her after ten years. I am forever grateful to J for making this long tedious trip up here so we could see one another.

    Thursday, July 21, 2005

    Farmer's Market Children's Day

    Here they look so eager and innocent, Ha if that was only the way they behaved all the time Life would be so easy. They really had a great time watching the puppet show, doing the clown toss, and the bubbles.

    Wednesday, July 20, 2005

    Nine Layers

    LAYER ONE:
    -- Name: Kathy.
    -- Birth date: July 3.
    -- Birthplace: MA.
    -- Current Location: ME.
    -- Eye Color: Brown.
    -- Hair Color: Dark blonde.
    -- Height: 5'5"
    -- right or Lefty: Righty.
    -- Zodiac Sign: Cancer.

    LAYER TWO:
    -- Your heritage: Irish, Italian, Portuguese.
    -- The shoes you wore today: Black thick flip-flops.
    -- Your weakness: Twizzllers.
    -- Your fears: something happening to my children.
    -- Your perfect pizza: Garlic, mushroom & black olive. Upscale version: garlic,basil & asiago.
    -- Goal you'd like to achieve: A happy childhood and superior education for my children, love and passion for me.

    LAYER THREE:
    -- Your most overused phrase on IM: "yes"
    -- Your first waking thoughts: "did you make coffee?"
    -- Your best physical feature: My eyes
    -- Your most missed memory: Dancing at Mercury Bar in Boston with my Kerri.

    LAYER FOUR:
    -- Pepsi or Coke: Diet Coke.
    -- McDonald's or Burger King: McDonald's.
    -- Single or group dates: Single.
    -- Adidas or Nike: Neitherâ€Â”I usually chuncky shoes.
    -- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Nestea.
    -- Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate.
    -- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino.

    LAYER FIVE:
    -- Smoke: Yes (I know).
    -- Cuss: Hell Yea.
    -- Sing: Yes, but not well.
    -- Take a shower everyday: That's funny.
    -- Do you think you've been in love: Yes. But I never 100% of what it really should be.
    -- Want to go to college: Not since I got my degree!
    -- Liked high school: Liked the challenge, disliked the cheerleaders and the cliques.
    -- Want to get married: Already am.
    -- Believe in yourself: All the way and then some.
    -- Get motion sickness: No!
    -- Think you're attractive: Objectively, yes.
    -- Think you're a health freak: No, have way too many guilty pleasures.
    -- Get along with your parent(s): Yes.
    -- Like thunderstorms: LOVE them!
    -- Play an instrument: No.

    LAYER SIX: In the past month...
    -- Drank alcohol: Oh, yes.
    -- Smoked: Yes.
    -- Done a drug: No.
    -- Made Out: No.
    -- Gone on a date: No.
    -- Gone to the mall?: No.
    -- Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: No.
    -- Eaten sushi: No.
    -- Been on stage: No.
    -- Been dumped: No.
    -- Gone skating: No.
    -- Made homemade cookies: No, and thats a crying shame.
    -- Dyed your hair: No.But really need to.
    -- Stolen Anything: No. Not my thing.

    LAYER SEVEN: Ever...
    -- Played a game that required removal of clothing: Heh. Yes.
    -- If so, was it mixed company: Yes.
    -- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Mais oui.
    -- Been caught "doing something": Yes!
    -- Been called a tease: Never. If I mean it, I deliver.
    -- Gotten beaten up: Several times, but you seen my hammer.
    -- Shoplifted: No.
    -- Changed who you were to fit in: Never.

    LAYER EIGHT:
    -- Age you hope to be married: Am already
    -- Numbers and Names of Children: K&S.
    -- Describe your Dream Wedding: Already happened.
    -- How do you want to die: Suddenly and peacefully. Not screaming, and not wondering where my children are.
    -- Where you want to go to college: Went, a great private one.
    -- What do you want to be when you grow up: I am grown up! And I am comfortable in my own skin, which is rare and precious.
    -- What country would you most like to visit: Italy.

    LAYER NINE:
    -- Number of drugs taken illegally: 5.
    -- Number of people I could trust with my life: Honestly? Perhaps 4.
    -- Number of CDs that I own: 100-150, give or take.
    -- Number of piercings: one each.
    -- Number of tattoos: None yet.
    -- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: 4 or 5.
    -- Number of scars on my body: I was a tomboy.
    -- Number of things in my past that I regret: Several, but I would not change a thing.It makes me who I am today. I would not risk losing any of my blessings in my life.

    Monday, July 18, 2005

    Deck

    We have a bigger deck, we expanded by 12 feet, I really wanted to cover that old rigid concrete on the other side. It looks beautiful. My handsome sexy husband carpenter did this job in two weekends. I am forever grateful to have married a handy man then some. I am also so happy that in the process of wood, powertools, nails etc...That our children survived the on going project in one piece.

    Sunday, July 17, 2005

    Salt Water

    "The cure for anything is salt water...sweat, tears or the sea."

    --Isak Dinesen

    Monday, July 11, 2005

    Beach

    well I felt the kids needed to go to the beach since its 92 here and there are no excuses because the beach is 3 miles up the road....
    it's fun to watch them play in the sand and the water....but then you look around..and you see the perfect mom who doesnt even get sand on her entire body not even her feet!! and to top it off you hate her because she has the perfect arse...lol (rememeber your shape at 17) after 2 kids...mind you
    And here I am in a tank and shorts the biggest size ever in life- cant even find a bathing suit unless it has the skirt on it the kind your mother wears....
    but then I think to myself--- hey the kids look great in their swimsuits and they are having a blast building castles with shells and throwing sand on mommy--life is good....
    I need to go on a starvation diet!!!!

    Friday, July 08, 2005

    The Bugley Boy~

    monkey boy
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    he is wild---- happy 2nd birthday

    Wednesday, July 06, 2005

    Birthday's Parades & Lobstah

    Lobster no one wants to eat on the given date...hold cold lostah sandwich who cares what date we eat lobsta!!!!>>>??? Good Kate's seafood....Parents are good mood bad mood....rain sunny days Happy Birthday S C!!!!!! Wow you are now officially 2 years old terrible 2 hit you six months ago though---- your still my sweet boy even in your ravenous moods please cont'd to steal my heart every single day- We love you. Happy Birthday to me--yep- I love my Bob the builder cake just as much as S was surprised to see our kitchen completely transformed in a bob the builder party!!!!! Wow a new playset, a t-ball set, a Clifford puzzle, and more clothes then a 2 yr old boy knows what to do with! I treated myself to new newbalance walking sneakers, a new skirt and two new tanktops...I hate the way my body fits into the fat girl clothes at the big girl fat store. My own damn fault for letting the dreadful Maine winter drag on with the comforts of food.
    The 4th of July parade was great but an 1 hr and half is a bit much..., S enjoyed it very much but K wanted to go home after the first whitsle and horn banging from the first fire engine.., ha 12 more trucks to go. She did enjoy getting the candy they threw in the street. The firework display from our side yard was thrilling and dad and the kids loved it very much. Ah, July is in it's prime.

    Thursday, June 30, 2005

    Capt.Destructo & his Sidekick

    Let it be known that I adore, cherish and love my kids with every fiber of my being. However since we have lost our sense of routine with Kalen out of school, all chaos has completely taken over. I guess that would be my own damn fault. It's summer and things are just wild around here. Everything seems to get broken or destroyed. Stephen just about breaks everything he manages to get his little toddler hands on. It is driving me crazy!!!! I try to do crafts, and coloring with crayons and markers, craft foam projects. On hot days I set the pool up and we enjoy the swing set. The in between time is crazy around here., our living room lamp has seen it's last days of worthiness as the shade has broken off. Peace only comes at nap time around here and if I am lucky they both sleep at the same time. Heaven help me.

    Wednesday, June 29, 2005

    Character

    Character is what you know you are, not what others think you have.
    — Marva Collins

    Monday, June 27, 2005

    I really love company

    I am being sarcastic. The day before our company arrives I go food shopping with kids in tow, with my ever extensive list of items. What a task this is! I need to mention this deli lady me : 1/2 a pound of cheese please deli lady: how do you want that sliced? Me: it doesn't matter. Deli lady: something else? Me: 1/2 pound of turkey please. Deli lady: how do you want that sliced? omg holy fuck old bitch IT DOESN'T MATTER!!!!! I think I want it sliced 3 inches fucking thick- good god, hate that...Why does it even matter how its fucking sliced!!!!!!! Ass bitch--- and this was only the start of the shopping experience. Oh boy.Summer morning at the grocery store is a hellish nightmare
    My inlaws arrived at noon the following day with Stephens aunt., oh and what a joy she is to be around.(long story)
    Overall we had a nice time, I am happy to say I video taped the entire day the good bad the the funny parts all caught on tape. The worse thing about having company is the Stephen grills the whole time, and I serve, prepare, and clean up everything!!!!!! Oh do I despise cleaning up too-And as well as we can try to stick to the same routine I try to have the children on, never works why on earth do I bother... Why in the the world do they only come for one day behooves me, its a 4.5 hour car drive on top of it being hazy hot and humid a mere 102 degrees by 1pm. Summer has a arrived and I intend on staying put.I would secretly love to escape into a private rustic cabins in the northwoods on a lake....

    I'm just a GIRL

    sexy
    You're a sexy girl! You are beautiful, and you
    love attention from guys, and are very
    flirtatous. You might come off as a slut and
    bitch to some but I think you have another side
    to you that is pleaing for attention, love, and
    care. You might be confident on the outside but
    don't be afraid to unleash a more sensitive
    side. Be better than just the average sex
    symbol.


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    Friday, June 24, 2005

    happy anniversary

    five years and still going strong!!!! five years and still my love, my peace, my heart!!
    One of these days we need to get over here
    http://www.sulmarerestaurant.com/chef.html

    Thursday, June 23, 2005

    The Pasta Sauce Nightmare

    So another beautiful morning began., coffee, some breakfast. The kids watch some cartoons, get bored, play with some toys get bored with that. Stephen decides whatever is in the kitchen cabinets is so much more entertaining. (note to self) get more cabinet locks and fast! Aha yes, a new jar of pasta sauce. With the slighted of smallest toss kaplunk on the kitchen floor. A hug spray of bright red prego galore.....Whammy let's see it was EVERYWHERE!!!! Yup, the walls the ceiling, the cabinets, the dishwasher, the ceiling fan, the fridge, and of course every little crevice you can think of a nightmare.
    So another beautiful day with kids begins.....Ha, at least the kitchen is clean., for five minutes anyway.

    Wednesday, June 22, 2005

    Reality

    Reality is the leading cause of stress for those in touch with it.
    — Jack Wagner

    "Your gonna need a bigger boat"

    'Frankly My Dear...' Named Top Movie Quote
    Wednesday, June 22, 2005 11:26 AM EDT
    The Associated Press
    By DAVID GERMAIN

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    Marlon Brando was a contender in the American Film Institute's list of best quotes from U.S. movies. But No. 1 was Rhett Butler's parting shot to Scarlett O'Hara: "Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn."

    Clark Gable's line to Vivien Leigh in 1939's "Gone With the Wind" led the AFI's list, announced in the organization's annual top-100 special that aired on CBS Tuesday.

    Brando had the No. 2 and 3 quotes _ "I'm going to make him an offer he can't refuse," from "The Godfather" and his "I coulda been a contender" speech from "On the Waterfront."

    Judy Garland's Dorothy Gale came in fourth with "Toto, I've got a feeling we're not in Kansas anymore," from The Wizard of Oz." At No. 5 was "Here's looking at you, kid," spoken by Rick (Humphrey Bogart) to Ilsa (Ingrid Bergman) in "Casablanca."

    Bob Gazzale, producer of the AFI special, expected a "Casablanca" line would top the list, chosen through ballots sent to 1,500 filmmakers, actors, critics and others in Hollywood. Yet once the votes were counted, Rhett's retort seemed an obvious choice, Gazzale said.

    "Frankly, it has become kind of the catch phrase of catch phrases," Gazzale said. "It's used in so many different ways. Who hasn't been in a relationship where you really give it your all, whether you're a man or a woman, and finally get to the point where you surrender and take back control of the situation with a simple line from the 1930s?"

    Two other lines from "Gone With the Wind" made the top 100, Leigh's "After all, tomorrow is another day" (No. 31) and "As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again" (No. 59).

    Rounding out the top 10:

    6. "Go ahead, make my day," Clint Eastwood, "Sudden Impact."

    7. "All right, Mr. DeMille, I'm ready for my close-up," Gloria Swanson, "Sunset Blvd."

    8. "May the Force be with you," Harrison Ford, "Star Wars."

    9. "Fasten your seatbelts. It's going to be a bumpy night," Bette Davis, "All About Eve."

    10. "You talking to me?", Robert De Niro, "Taxi Driver."

    "Casablanca" led the list with six quotes, including Bogart's "Louis, I think this is the beginning of a beautiful friendship" (No. 20) and "We'll always have Paris" (No. 43), and Bergman's "Play it, Sam. Play `As Time Goes By'" (No. 28).

    Other highlights include Sidney Poitier's "They call me Mister Tibbs!" (No. 16), "In the Heat of the Night"; Roy Scheider's "You're gonna need a bigger boat" (No. 35), "Jaws"; Arnold Schwarzenegger's "I'll be back" (No. 37), "The Terminator"; Renee Zellweger's "You had me at `hello'" (No. 52), "Jerry Maguire"; Peter Sellers' "Gentlemen, you can't fight in here! This is the War Room!" (No. 64), "Dr. Strangelove"; and Charlton Heston's "Soylent Green is people!" (No. 77), "Soylent Green."

    The oldest line was Al Jolson's "Wait a minute, wait a minute. You ain't heard nothin' yet" (No. 71) from 1927's "The Jazz Singer." The newest was Andy Serkis' "My precious" (No. 85) from 2002's "The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers."

    Rowdy comedy was represented (John Belushi's "Toga! Toga!", No. 82, from "National Lampoon's Animal House"), along with horror (Jack Nicholson's "Here's Johnny!", No. 68, from "The Shining"). So was musical comedy (Barbra Streisand's "Hello, gorgeous," No. 81, from "Funny Girl"), and epic romance (Leonardo DiCaprio's "I'm king of the world!", No. 100, from "Titanic").

    Single words made the list, Orson Welles' "Rosebud" (No. 17) from "Citizen Kane" and Walter Brooke's "Plastics" (No. 42) from "The Graduate."

    Super-spy James Bond scored with lines that began with original 007 Sean Connery: "Bond. James Bond" (No. 22) from "Dr. No" and "A martini. Shaken, not stirred" (No. 90) from "Goldfinger."

    The most recent James Bond, Pierce Brosnan, hosted the AFI quotes special. While some critics carp about omissions from AFI's lists or grouse over the idea of ranking movies, Brosnan said it's all in fun.

    "It's an intrinsic part of human nature to rank, file, have a No. 1 and No. 2, to make us all feel better, I think, and to show how clever we are," Brosnan said. "It's purely entertainment."

    ___

    On the Net:

    www.afi.com


    Monday, June 20, 2005

    Dad

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    Happy Father's Day Stephen

    We had a very nice day yesterday at Boothbay Railway. The kids enjoyed themselves tremendously I survived the 45 minute drive over there. It seems like a long time since I was in the car for that amount of time. It was a great stroll through the village, then onto the train. Which I nicknamed "Thomas". It was very exciting to watch the children's reaction when we began to move up the tracks. Stephen didn't cry at all, and Kalen kept saying Thomas is blue not green; so I re-nicknamed Thomas Percy,and thankgoodness he really is green as we confirmed in the books at home. We had a nice picnic lunch that I carefully packed up that early morning. I love him for so many reasons. More so, the way he loves, adores and cares for our children.

    Friday, June 17, 2005

    Balloons

    I just have to wonder if the hospital gave me the correct children at times. One of those times was today. A shopping trip to our local party supply shop. Browsing around with two kids under the age of four is crazy to begin with. The wonderfully nice sales lady offers them two balloons as she must have seen my frazzled look upon my face.
    I make my purchase after multiple thank you's to the sales lady...Only to get back in the car to screaming crying children!!!!! Who does this? What child cries over a balloon? Free I might add. Yes, mine.Urghhhhhh.

    love is.....one week until 5th anniversary....

    Buddha
    You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.

    Confucius
    Can there be a love which does not make demands on its object?

    Voltaire
    Love is a canvas furnished by Nature and embroidered by imagination.

    Henry Ward Beecher
    I never knew how to worship until I knew how to love.

    Antoine de Saint-Exupery
    Love does not consist in gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction.

    Mother Teresa
    There is more hunger for love and appreciation in this world than for bread.

    Douglas Yates
    People who are sensible about love are incapable of it.

    Mother Teresa
    We can do no great things; only small things with great love.

    Rabindranath Tagore
    I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times, in life after life, in age after age forever.

    Aristotle
    Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.

    Unknown
    Love is like playing the piano.

    TODAY

    Today I can complain because the weather is rainy or I can be thankful that the grass is getting watered for free. Today I can feel sad that I don't have more money or I can be glad that my finances encourage me to plan my purchases wisely and guide me away from waste. Today I can grumble about my health or I can rejoice that I am alive. Today I can lament over all that my parents didn't give me when I was growing up or I can feel grateful that they allowed me to be born. Today I can cry because roses have thorns or I can celebrate that thorns have roses. Today I can mourn my lack of friends or I can excitedly embark upon a quest to discover new relationships. Today I can whine because I have to go to work or I can shout for joy because I have a job to do. Today I can complain because I have to go to school or eagerly open my mind and fill it with rich new tidbits of knowledge. Today I can murmur dejectedly because I have to do housework or I can feel honored because the Lord has provided shelter for my mind, body and soul. Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped. And here I am, the sculptor who gets to do the shaping. What today will be like is up to me. I get to choose what kind of day I will have! Have a GREAT DAY! Unless you have other plans.
    __________________

    Tuesday, June 14, 2005

    Saturday, June 11, 2005

    Speech Eval Meeting

    The pathologist is booked until fall so I need to seek out some one else.(we can't wait until then)...however she did say he was a pleasure to work with as brief as it was, and Stephen was charming and very sweet..He has a severe speech delay he is at a 9 month level makes me very uneasy and sad because he comprehends "everything" I say or others say to him yet does not communicate with words whatsoever...we will be going weekly for one hr to work on his speech.He did say mama the other day which melted my heart to hear.....he now runs around saying "blue" and "no" quite often too-.

    Saturday, May 14, 2005

    Friday, April 29, 2005

    Speech Pathologist


    she was very very nice and super informative! She ruled out autism, yay. However, as we all know and assumed he is way behind with his speech. We will be working together once a week or once a month depending upon what a team of experts decides in the next couple of weeks. She said he was a bit shy at first but toward the end his personality began to shine and she could tell what he was and wasnt capable of doing. Follow simple directions, etc..Overall it was a nice evaluation, when we work together in the future she suggested it should be just her and Stephen....

    Tuesday, March 29, 2005

    speech delay

    21 months almost;Stephen-he has no speech whatsoever-he becomes frustrated because of this and on occasion has pretty violent tantrums, bangs his head on doors and the hardwood floors. I am a bit sad, confused and really aprehensive but at the same token want to be pro-active; if indeed he has a problem I want to nip it in the bud asap.I read on the computer that by this age 20-21 months our children should know at least 50-100 words if not more., he has zero!

    Monday, January 03, 2005

    happy new year

    2005~~~~~
    happy new year!!!!